I like makeup & girly things

I tell people I don’t miss her and I force myself to count the things wrong with her and I open her snapchats and don’t reply and I wait hours to respond to her text messages and I dare not call her first but I do all these things because I’m so alone without her. I feel so small and insignificant (and empty). I just miss my best friend.

I would rather have her make me cry on my birthday than relive my last dance show.

I'm v sad but I'm not about to tell her any of that bc then she doesn't try as hard I hate myself lol oops Kristin